IV

What this is cannot be so easily defined
A Homeric term- a symbol of past yearning.
Hear the sounds of night and know
These are the sounds of night throughout, not
especially one night, not intentionally sighted at you

But dew creeps into my vision like serpentine vines
and the condolences offered by memory are fleeting.
Where is the harlequin comfort of home and the
evanescent beauty of my seraphim childhood?

Refuge is not assembled by saccharine dreams.
It is not that He is not here but rather that my
arms are hesitant to embrace that which is everything
For fear drives me now, from the sacral sphere
to the thundering pummel of heart beats.

there is hope.

how's your vision?

there's alot of truth in your tv box WONKAvision.



keep a level mind in the tunnels of horror. wonka doesn't flinch.
sing a whimsical wonka song. it's all up in the swirly-whirly air,
but it is all perfectly okay if you keep the hurricane eye.

a birthday dream.

in my dream ~
climbing up concrete pylons
i think about being a trucker ~
sitting on a beach underneath a highway
there are hippy families scattered beneath it ~
suddenly i have my guitar and sit down to tune it up
a little boy sits next to me and says he’s tired of hearing
all the same songs and wants me to play for him
so i think to myself to play him ‘lucky’ but
as i play what comes out is ‘no surprises’
two girls i cannot see complete the harmony
and before long i have to stop because i start crying ~
hostile megaphones announce that we are to leave the beach
immediately and bombs start falling into the water some way off
people scatter but i stay behind to watch the pillars of water rise
and then a very big one begins to swell not very far away and i
wonder if it’s an atomic explosion because of how big it is ~
this is when i run, somehow i’m in a building, i run up the stairs
and i’m on the highway above overlooking the ocean ~
the entire ocean is now perfectly still & smooth
like a sheet of glass and the color is of a deep cerulean blue ~

take these wings 8.

FREEDOM IS FREE.
IN ALL POSSIBLE WAYS.
IT’S ALWAYS BEEN YOURS.
THIS IS ESSENTIAL TO KNOW.

take these wings 7.

 YOUR RESPONSIBILITIES DO NOT MAKE YOU,
ANY LESS FREE THAN YOU OTHERWISE ARE.
THAT’S ALL SEMANTICS FOR YOUR MIND TO
CIRCLE & SEEK & DECEIVE ITSELF WITHIN.
WHAT IS GIVEN TO YOU TO TAKE CARE OF
WAS INSPIRED BY YOUR OWN CHOICES &
IS A MEASURE OF INHERITED TRUST
FROM THE FUTURE TO THE PAST, NOW:
GUARD THIS FOR ME, GIVE IT A NAME,
& A CHANCE TO BE HAPPY & LOVED.
FURNISH & FLOWER & FULFILL ME!
LOVE CAN NEVER BE SECOND-HANDED.
SOMETIMES WE LEARN BEST WHAT IS RIGHT
IN THE MIDST OF DOING WHAT IS BEST WRONG.
YOU CANNOT DESPAIR FOR WHAT IS NOT YOURS
OR ALL THE THINGS YOU CANNOT GET OR HAVEN’T.
IN INVESTING YOUR LOVE INTO ONE OR MANY
YOU WILL FEEL THE RETURN & NOT MISS THE
POINT THAT THE UNIVERSE WAS TRYING TO
MAKE THE WHOLE TIME: YES, LOVE IS
THE BOTTOM LINE & ALL YOU NEED.
YOU ARE WHAT YOU LOVE & ALSO
WHAT LOVES YOU TRULY RETURN.
TEACH YOUR KIDS WHAT LOVE IS
& REALLY MEANS - SHOW THEM.
DON’T LET DISNEY DO IT FOR YOU.
YOU DO NOT NEED TO HAVE MORE
OR WORRY ABOUT HAVING LESS
OF ANYTHING. CHECK YOURSELF.
BE PATIENT. BE COOL. BE HAPPY.
OUR CHILDHOOD MUST END.
SHARE ALL OF YOURSELF.
YOU’LL BE FREE IN NO TIME.
AND ALLONE SOON ENOUGH.

take these wings 6.

THE PRESS WENT TO COLLEGE TO LEARN HOW TO
REPORT THE FACTS - TELL YOU LESS OF WHAT IS
OR MORE THAN WHAT WAS MEANT - TO LIE.
THEY GIVE POWER TO WITCH HUNTS & TRIALS.
THEY WILL TALLY YOUR MURDERS & CRIMES
SO YOU CAN ANXIOUSLY CONSIDER STATISTICS.
THEY INFORM YOU TO VOTE THE INFORMED WAY.
THEY’LL REVEAL BOTH PERVERTS & EUNUCHS.
“AVOID GOING OUT & MISTRUST EVERYBODY.”
THEY WILL FOLLOW EMOTIONAL BALLOONS
AND BE FOLLOWED BY LOUDER COMMERCIALS.
THE POLITICIANS WENT TO COLLEGE TO LEARN HOW TO
REPRESENT THE MASS - CONVINCE SELF_EMPOWERED
CITIZENS TO RELINQUISH THEIR POWER BY VOTE - TO LIE.
THEY LEND INTENDED EMOTION TO A CAUSE TO SWAY
THEIR DISTRICT TO THEIR INTENDED VISION & CAUSE.
THEY KNOW HOW TO POSE WELL IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
TOUCH BABIES, AND SMILE FOR CHARITABLE EVENTS.
THEY WILL QUOTE STATISTICS MISQUOTED BY THE PRESS.
THEIR SIGNATURES START WARS & SLAUGHTER TROOPS.
THEY’LL REVEAL THEMSELVES AS PERVERTS & HUMANS.
 “MY OPPONENT IS UNTRUSTWORTHY. VOTE FOR ME.”
THEY WILL WRITE LAWS BOUGHT BY COMMERCIALISTS
AND WILL PAY FOR AND APPROVE UGLIER COMMERCIALS.
THE EXECUTIVE WENT TO COLLEGE TO LEARN HOW TO
STIMULATE BUSINESS - FIND LEGAL MEANS TO EXTORT
AND EXPLOIT EVERY TRANSPORTABLE SOURCE - TO LIE.
THEY HAVE READ THE ART OF WAR, FIVE RINGS, THE PRINCE.
THEY UNDERSTAND THE GAME BETTER THAN THE MAKER.
THEIR MONEY GOES INTO YOU BEFORE YOU SURRENDER
TWICE AS MUCH PLUS ENGAGE A SUBSCRIPTION OF SERVICE.
THEY ARE INDISPENSABLE AND YOU WILL FIRMLY AGREE.
THEIR MISTAKES RELEASE THEM AND THEIR SEVERANCE
LOOKS LIKE THE BUDGET OF SEVERAL THIRD WORLDS.
THEY FILL A DEMAND OR INVENT THE NEED IF NEEDED.
“BE HAPPY: BUY THE HYPE THEN BUY THE PRODUCT.”
THEY OWN THE NEWSPAPERS, THE LAWMAKERS, AND
OUR WAY OF LIFE. THEY INVENTED THE COMMERCIAL.
YOU ALONE (ALL_ONE) UPHOLD THEIR UPHOLSTERED LIES.
REFUSE TO BE DUPED BY THESE UPPER ECHELONS
OF POWER, WEALTH, AND (MIS)INFORMATION;
BUT DO NOT HATE THEM. YOU MUSTN’T HATE.
FOR THEY MUST JOIN US WHEN THEIR PLANS
GO WRONG; AS ALL PLANS OFTEN DO & WILL.

take these wings 5.

KNOW THE DIFFERENCE:
FREEDOM OF RELIGION.
& FREEDOM OF BELIEF.
LATTER TRUMPS FORMER.
TOLERANCE IS NOT ACCEPTANCE.
THERE’S A JIHAD AGAINST HOLY WARS.
ONE IS PROTECTED IN THE BILL OF RIGHTS.
ONE SUPERSEDES GOVERNMENT CENSORSHIP.
YOUR RELIGION DOES NOT CONCERN THE STATE.
THEY WILL NOT TAX NOR PROMOTE YOUR TEMPLE
THEY WILL PREACH SECOND-HAND TOLERANCE.
HOWEVER, YOUR BELIEFS & YOUR CONVICTIONS
ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIES THE STATE TO NO END
& THEY WILL OPPRESS THEM UNTIL......

take these wings 4.

OUR RICHNESS MAKES US POORER, 
WEALTH COMES & GOES & OH YOU KNOW IT.
MONIES FLOWS TO RICHER POCKETS ANYWAY,
LOST IN BANK ACCOUNTS TO SIT & SWIRL,
& FUND CRUISE-LINE-LIFE-STYLES, EASED
BY ONLY-TAX-DEDUCTIBLE CHARITIES,
DEBITED TO BE INVESTED BACK INTO
THE MACHINE "FOR THE PEOPLE"
THAT LOOPS: REPEAT PROCESS.

MIDDLE-CLASS IDLENESS

ENABLES THE CELEBRITY INDUSTRY:

STARS OF FILM & ROCK ATTENTION,

MAINSTREAM SUCCESS STORIES,

FIFTEEN MINUTES OF STATIC,

UN_REALITY PARTICIPANTS.

WE GIVE OUR PRECIOUS ATTENTION AWAY
TO STAY UPDATED, WITHOUT CARING,
AS TO WHICH OF THEIR CREATIONS IS:
CRACKING UNDER THE PRESSURE OF
RECOGNIZABILITY/FUCKING THE OTHER ONE/
GETTING FAT/FINDING TROUBLE/CHEATING/
BEING AWARDED/BEING SILLY/BEING DEAD
& THEN DESIRE FAME ALL THE MORE

OUR INTEREST FOR LIFE IS SHOWN AS A LUST FOR LIGHT

REFLECTED IN_ACTION & HALF AS AN UNDONE-THOUGHT

WE ARE THE LAWYERS & THE JURORS:
WE WANT OUR CAESARS' BREAKFAST!
WE DEMAND THE JUDGES' ROBES!

THE ECONOMY SLOWS OUR ROLE,

SIMULATING THE ARISTOCRACY.

WE, READERS OF THE NEWSPAPERS,

TALKERS & OPINION-PUSHERS,

PEDDLERS, PRIESTS, & PENITENTS;

ALWAYS ANGRY TO BE DELAYED;

WHOM CARE TOO MUCH FOR

PARKING SPACES AND

PAID-TIME-OFF.

take these wings 3.

three:

POLICE-STATE HAIKU

HEY, YOU CAN’T STAND THERE!
GIVE ME YOUR IDENTITY.
NOW. MOVE ALONG, SIR/MA'AM.

HAND OVER YOUR BAG.

WHAT CONTRABAND DO YOU HAVE?

YOU DON’T PAY MY WAGE.

DON’T ACCEPT BAGGAGE.
STATE YOUR BUSINESS. CARRY ON.
REPORT YOUR NEIGHBOR.

take these wings 2.

two:

THE STATE
WILL DO ANYTHING
TO CONVINCE YOU/US
THAT YOU/WE ARE ALREADY FREE:

FREEDOM? DON’T YOU KNOW?!

YOU ARE A PART OF IT EVERYDAY!

LOOK AROUND YOU, THIS IS:

AMERICA/CHINA/IRAN AFTER ALL!

[FREEDOM IS SLAVERY]

WAGE SLAVERY FREEDOM.

TAX SLAVERY FREEDOM.

CHAIN-GANG PRISONERS

ASSEMBLY LINE ROBOTS

CREDIT SLAVERY PRIVILEGE.

CONSUMERIST SLAVERY

FREEDOM TO SHOP.

FREEDOM OF PRESS:

PROPAGANDA / PAPARAZZI

FREEDOM TO CHOOSE

TO BE INDECISIVE

TO WEIGH YOUR OPTIONS.

FREEDOM TO BE FREE

OF FREEDOM HATING MEN?

FREEDOM OF SECURITY.
LIFE (CITIZENSHIP)
LIBERTY (CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS)
& THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS
(TRANSITORY PLEASURES).

BUZZ-SQUEAK-TICK-TOCK:

HUM OF THE HUNGRY HIVE.

RACE OF THE FASTEST RAT.

KILLING TIME / DAILY GRIND.

SLAVERY IS FREEDOM WITH BENEFITS +
WE PROMOTE HEALTHY COMPETITION
‘CAUSE WE HIRE FROM WITHIN.
EVERYBODY FED & FAT & TIRED?
EVERYBODY COMFORTABLE? GOOD, NOW:
SALUTE YOUR SUPERIOR OFFICER!
VENERATE OUR DEAR SUPREME LEADER!
ZEIG HAIL! WE’RE THE TOP DOG NATION NOW!
GLORIFY OUR SLAIN YOUTH PATRIOTS!
PAY UP! PAY UP! PAY UP!
DON’T LIKE IT? BE A BUM.
TRUE FREEDOM IS VAGRANCY
PREACHED BY BOHEMIAN BEATS
THAT PRAISE DEATH AND OBLIVION.
TO BEG IS TOO HUMBLE FOR
THE PERSON YOU THINK YOU ARE.
TO EMBRACE SUFFERING
IS FOR THE IMPOVERISHED.
& HOLY, SO SAVE SAINTHOOD
FOR BETTER AND POORER MEN.

THE STATE’S METHOD GIVES US:

ESCAPE FROM POVERTY.

ESCAPE FROM OBSCURITY.

ESCAPE FROM SUFFERING

THE POWER TO DOMINATE.

THE RIGHT TO SUE OURSELVES

IN A COURT OF LAW.

WE CAN BE FREE IF WE:

FIGHT OUR OPPRESSORS

WEED OUT THE RABBLE.

CONVINCE A JURY. RUN.

YOU DON’T NEED GOD OR HOPE.
YOU NEED A VACATION, A BREAK.
TRY PLEASURE/BLISS/RAPTURE
EXPERIENCE EXOTICA &
THIRD WORLD TROPICALIA.
CHASE THE DRAGON & GET LAID.
MAKE ALL THINGS POSSIBLE
FOR YOURSELF, GIVE US A CUT,
& THEN SHARE WHAT YOU CAN.

take these wings.

and learn to fly. A DISCOURSE ON FREEDOM, what you must know 
about your bondage, divided into eight considerations. please rethink.



TRUE FREEDOM IS FREE.
IT IS EXACTLY NOT (A)
SOMETHING TO BE HAD.
IT IS NOT EVEN A CONCEPT
OR AN EMOTIVE WORD.
IT CANNOT BE SUMMARIZED
AS INTANGIBLE/ABSTRACT.

TO BE FREE IS TO BE FREE

OF THE WORD FREE FOREVER.

EITHER TO NEVER KNOW

YOU WERE FREE OR TO

NEVER KNOW YOU WERE NOT.

THE GAME ITSELF NEVER ENDS.
CYCLES REOCCUR - AS THEY MUST
DUALISM OF TWO ARMS CROSSED
TO SHAKE THE TWO HANDS OF
THE OTHER'S CROSSED HANDS
YIELDS YOUR INFINITE HOOPS.
THE PLAYERS ARE ONE ENTITY;

AS A FIELD OF SUN CASTS A LONG SHADOW

& A TUNNEL OF LIGHT FINDS ECHOING SILHOUETTES;

LIFE & DEATH, CHAOS & ORDER, WHITE & BLACK, 1 & 0,

SPACE & TIME, TWO HEADS/SAME COIN-LESS COIN.

CAN ZERO BE DIVIDED BY ONE? YES! YES!
DAY BY DAY WE ARE FINDING OUT HOW:
THE CHALLENGE OF THE UNIVERSE
WAS TO LOSE ITSELF AND IT HAS.
IT IS US AND WE HAVE TO
PUT IT BACK TOGETHER
FIRST, WE HAVE TO REALIZE
WE ARE [EVERYTHING IN] THIS
NAMELESS UNIVERSE &
EVENTUALLY WE CAN
COME TOGETHER
AND THE UNIVERSE WILL
THINK TO ITSELF:
WELL, THERE. NOW.
I (ALL) HAVE FOUND MYSELF
AND PUT MYSELF BACK TOGETHER
PIECE BY PERSON BY IDEA.
NOW I KNOW THE PEACE
OF ONENESS AGAIN, BUT
MAYBE I SHOULD PRESS RESET
AND PLAY AGAIN WITH ELEMENTS
BECAUSE THERE IS WHAT ELSE
TO DO BUT MAKE EXPLOSIONS
AND LOUD EXAMPLES OF LOVE?
YES THIS IS GOING TO COST A LOT OF:
BLOOD/SWEAT/TEARS/BODIES/TIME.
THO, THIS TIME AROUND, LET’S
MAKE IT HARDER FOR MY CHAOS-SELF
TO DISCOURAGE MY ORDER-SELF
AND FIRST BUILD A HOUSE AROUND
THIS HOUSE OF CARDS THAT BUILDS ITSELF.

SO IT SEEMS THE BLINDNESS IS VOLUNTARY,

AS EVERYONE SUPPOSES WILL SHOW YOU.

HAVE WE LEARNED YET THAT WE DON’T
HAVE TO DESTROY OURSELVES
IN ORDER TO TAKE OURSELVES APART?
WE WILL KNOW THAT ALL THE LOVE
THERE IS: IS US. WE NEVER HAD TO WORRY.
LIFE DOESN’T HAVE TO HURT IF WE
REALIZE THE TOTALITY OF THIS LOVE,
AND RESPECT OTHERS AS OURSELVES.
EASE THEIR SUFFERING TO EASE ONE’S OWN
BECAUSE THE SUFFERING IS THE SAME
AND UNIVERSALLY EXPERIENCED &
RELATIVE BEHIND PRIVILEGED GATES.
TO BE THE CHANGE: [BE THE CHANGE]
BE PEACE & FREEDOM & LOVE.
BE BEAUTY HERE & NOW. YOU WERE ONLY
WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT TO... ARRIVE
BUT AS TIME GOES ON, WE’RE
SLOW IN WAKING UP - SLEEPYHEADS! -
BUT GETTING BETTER ALL THE TIME,
WITH ALL THE TIME LEFT IN TIME ITSELF.

SAD, THE SUFFERING SEEMS TO BE NECESSARY.

THE VIOLENCE IS GENERALLY AGREED TO BE

THE WORST PART OF THE WHOLE BARGAIN.

IT PERSISTS BECAUSE

LIFE. MUST. GO. ON.

PERPENDICULAR TO GRAVITY,

JUST TO SHOW ITSELF THAT IT CAN.

THE FORCE OF THE UNSTOPPABLE POWER

MEETS ITS INVINCIBLE WALL; THUS,

THE CLASH OF ORDER AGAINST

CHAOS IS A BRUTAL &

INFINITELY PAINFUL ONE.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD,

PERHAPS, A PAPERCUT?

IF SO, I AM SO SORRY.

USE YOUR FLAGS AS

BANDAGES FOR BLOOD.

just a dream.

"In a little while you will be alone in shoreless space, 
to wander its limitless solitudes without friend 
or comrade forever--for you will remain a thought, 
the only existent thought, 
and by your nature inextinguishable, indestructible. 
But I, your poor servant, have revealed 
you to yourself and set you free. 
Dream other dreams, and better!"
 
- Mark Twain, The No. 44

take a leap.

the practice of jumping off cliffs is called "tomb-stoning."



regardless of the ominous-label, this is what it is: a person making a leap & taking a plunge. a high degree of risk is involved. people will always rhetorically ask you if you would jump off a cliff if your friends did first. anywhere you go in this world people will discourage you from walking off cliffs -- but they'll stare in fuckin' amazement when you jump anyway. survive & provide proof and you'll inspire others to confront & overcome their personal fears. walking to the edge takes courage enough. jumping always requires a measure of faith: trust in a hope as sure as gravity; a peace that even if we're dashed on the rocks below we'll accept that too with open eyes. success and failure has to be met with unwavering spirit not to become inflated or deflated, so as to float perfectly in line with the zone (the place where we come alive and perform with excellence).

there will always be a million excuses for why you can't & why you shouldn't & all the more stories for why you couldn't or didn't. you either did or did not. you either fell & swam or you looked & retreated. the risk will be the same if you came back tomorrow "more prepared" and "better equipped." sure, the pieces have to be in order before you dive - the cliff has to be reached properly after all - but the moment of commitment will feel the same then or now so understand why you're hesitant. sure, you could always come back to the cliff some other time, but the longer you wait the more certain it will become that you never will return. time is infinite, of course, but as us humans only have finite time we can't rely on time alone to provide us with what we want. We have to prepare & be ready to do what we have to and take our actions against time. is the risk too great? it's an illusion - two outcomes projected by your mind - you must commit to the vision of one and manifest it. then again, sometimes accident do occur. sometimes chaos, the prankster, takes our legs right out from under us.
any death resulting from such an act couldn't be called a suicide. it'd simply be a circumstance that arose from zealously pursuing life. a miscalculation. an abortion of faith. gravity. an eventuality anyway because everybody is already dead, they just haven't experienced it forward-in-time yet, but whatever its guise it's already there waiting for us. there's a design to survival, so it goes: live long enough and you'll die from exposure.

hey, so ...

a) they call it tomb-stoning to discourage you from trying.

b) if ever you were going to change your life, or jump off a cliff, or do anything at all that you wanted to do: do it right now, or as soon as possible. even if it seems crazy to others, do what's right for you. believe in hope & take a leap.

c) this is your sign.

a_wind_o

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hell0-uh-0h. it_is a storm out there / in here. {embed music_file ::: bjork music_file:::} please [press] play

Bjork - "All Is Full of Love"



[look] in_to your window. you [see] a stream.

can you [survive] the current ??? will you [follow] ???

is it possible, man, [to_be] too (floating) ???

[breathe] smoothly for - optimum - buoyancy.

foot-by-foot (as) light-year-by-light-year.

the difference (is) perspective.

you [see] what you [want] to [see]

or you [see] what it_is.

no_body can [make] you

or [save] you but you.

floater, are you dust in_the wind

or a seed in_the breeze ???

hamlet, to [be] or not then ???

fate is ________ far away.

[use] hope. [try] trust.

[give] love. [go] far.

FREE (your) WILL.

o' travelers [have] heart,

o' lions [dissolve] doubt.

[know] &&& be advised :::

you [know] enough but

it_is_not_about_you.

deliberate little or risk delay.

wellness will come warm from with_in.

in this matter, your ghost [whispers] opinion.

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